Yahweh;My Savior&Yours.

2008-09-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

-clears the cobwebs off this site..- x]

The deformed baby. By; Jason.

John 17:24-26 (The Message)

Father, I want those you gave me
To be with me, right where I am,
So they can see my glory, the splendor you gave me,
Having loved me
Long before there ever was a world.
Righteous Father, the world has never known you,
But I have known you, and these disciples know
That you sent me on this mission.
I have made your very being known to them—
Who you are and what you do—
And continue to make it known,
So that your love for me
Might be in them
Exactly as I am in them.

A woman is in the hospital. She is having a son who will never see his father because his father died in a tragic gun fight in a distant country protecting the homeland. As she endures the enormous pain induced normally during child-birth with no one to hold her hand, she starts crying and yelling.. The pain gets worse and worse... The doctors have told her that if she gets even the smallest amount of pain medicine it would kill the baby. The doctors gave her a choice. Since the baby is not completely born yet, she could still give an abortion and use some medicine to help with the pain. She tells them she'll stick it out. It was her husband's dream to have a son. Once it is out, the doctors see there is something wrong. The baby doesn't look right.. He is missing a leg and the hand on his right arm. Somehow they didn't grow properly in her womb. The doctors had to tell her.. One whispered "I'm sorry ma'am. But your baby is deformed.. " She didn't listen, She was yelling at him trying to get to her baby boy.. He told her again "Your baby is deformed ma'am! She was still yelling seemingly without any signs of giving in. So the doctor gave up. He let her hold the baby and see for herself.. She stopped yelling and started to cry. The doctor looked at her with a tear in his eye. "I'm sorry ma'am." She just looking at him.. "For what?" The doctor replied "For how he looks.." She just looked at him in amazement... "This wonderful, beautiful baby boy is absolutely perfect. He is his father's dream come true. His daddy died in the war for him. What could be wrong with a baby if someone would die for him?" The doctor looked at her in shock. "I had no idea ma'am.." She said " Just because a certain thing looks a certain way doesn't mean it is..This is the most precious gift God has given to me since my husband.. I always love this perfect boy with all my heart."

We aren't perfect. We mess up over and over again. We give God so much pain just as this woman in this illustration was in pain. It sometimes is crazy to think He still loves us. That He still wants us. Yet he does!

Luke 23: 34-35 (The Message)
Jesus prayed, "Father, forgive them; they don't know what they're doing."
Dividing up his clothes, they threw dice for them. The people stood there staring at Jesus, and the ringleaders made faces, taunting, "He saved others. Let's see him save himself! The Messiah of God—ha! The Chosen—ha!"

Even while Jesus was being crucified He wanted God the Father to forgive those who are killing Him. Even while they were in the middle of getting Jesus' clothes for themselves.. God's Son died for us just like the father in the story died for his son. In the story, the dad was thinking especially about his son. Jesus was thinking about you and just like the baby wasn't perfect we aren't either. Yet God overlooks that imperfection and suffers though it. How great is our God! He suffers the pain of us disobeying Him over and over again knowing that Jesus has died for us and in His death we are made perfect. Thank Him today as you live your life. Praise Him with your lifesong. Live for Him as He died for you.

Be Strong!

2008-07-28T14:22:00.000+08:00

You are preparing to enter one of the most difficult periods of your life.

Be strong!

When you persevere through this severe trial you will be stronger, more confident, richer, refreshed and better.

Be Strong!

The desire to give up is sometimes overwhelming but don't quit.

Be Strong!

Many of you are now entering the 7 day water portion of 42.
Many of you are just going through a rough time that has absolutely nothing to do with 42.

Be Strong!

THE FUNERAL

2008-07-21T12:12:00.001+08:00

One day all the employees reached the office and they saw a big sign on the door on which was written: Yesterday, the person who has been hindering your growth inthis company passed away. We invite you to join the funeral in the room that has been prepared in the gym.

In the beginning, they all got sad for the death of one oftheir colleagues, but after a while they started getting curious to know who was that man who hindered the growth of his colleagues and the company itself.

The excitement in the gym was such that security agents were ordered to control the crowd within the room. The more people reached the coffin, the more the excitement heated up. Everyone thought: 'Who is this guy who was hindering my progress? Well, at least he died! One by one the thrilled employees got closer to the coffin, andwhen they looked inside it, they suddenly became speechless.

They stood nearby the coffin, shocked and in silence, as if someone had touched the deepest part of their soul.There was a mirror inside the coffin; everyone who looked inside it couldsee himself.There was also a sign next to the mirror that said:There is only one person who is capable of settinglimits to your growth: IT IS YOU!!!!!

Your life does not change when your boss changes,when your friends change,when your parents change, when your husband or wife change,when your company change,when your churchchanges, when your location change, when your money change,when your status change... Your life changes when YOU change, when you go beyond your limiting beliefs. Examine yourself, watch yourself. Don't be afraid of difficulties, impossibilities and losses. Be a winner, build yourself and your reality. It's the way you face Life that makes the difference.

2008-07-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

2008-07-09T22:47:00.005+08:00

In the beginning,the girl tried to
find her identity within cliques.

Then she tried to balance her schoolwork,friends,family,and
all other issues alone.

She failed.There was a mass
destructive force in her life.
A tornado swept through her,
disrupting everything she thought she had.

She went back to the one
she knew she could trust.
She went back to her Maker,
and she found the strength
to slowly rebuild her life,
to try and lay the foundation
right this time.
She has learnt from the past.
She will stay true to herself.

The past few days were tiring and depressing.Yet I know I'll find my strength in the LORD,who will build me up.I trust in Him to work in my life,and bring me just the right people that I need.He is my Healer; He can do all that no one could.

2008-07-08T21:38:00.002+08:00

This is one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen. It's an explanation other people will understand. A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.

As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving a God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt!

The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist." "How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.

"I am here, and I am a barber and I just worked on you!" "No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside." "Ah, but barbers DO exist! What happens is, people do not come to me."

"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world.

[quote ChrisMONKey]

That is why they say;
Let us not give up in meeting one another,because by ourselves it's really so hard.
But when we are together, the collective can rally round the individual who falters.'

[/quote]

Still,skeptical me asked;
What if the group that meets up are all strayers?
'Then let iron sharpen iron'

This is a lesson to me,and I hope it can be to you too..

2008-07-05T21:18:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 2:22 Quit relying on man, who only has breath in his nostrils, of what account is he?

Thank you Brother.

As on my life blog,I mentioned about the falling out with my father.I was,and still am feeling angsty.Then a brother came and gave me this verse.It was in relation to another topic I've posted on a forum,but I felt that it comforted me somehow.I don't know why,and I don't know how.

BUT I AM STILL ANGRY.

Forever; Who Am I

2008-07-04T11:32:00.003+08:00

Forever
Chris Tomlin

Give thanks to the Lord
Our God and King
His love endures forever
For He is good, He is above all things
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise
With a mighty hand
and outstretched arm
His love endures forever
For the life that's been reborn
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise (x2)

Yeah
Forever God is faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us
Forever,Forever

From the rising to the setting sun
His love endures forever
By the grace of God
We will carry on
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise (x2)

Forever God is faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us
Forever,Forever

Forever you are faithful
Forever you are strong
Forever you are with us
Forever,Forever
You are God.....
Forever
And ever and ever ....

Who Am I
Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

Jesus loves;And I lived.

2008-07-03T11:26:00.002+08:00

Well I'd just like to start off the post by thanking 'fren'.
Although I have no idea who you are,I appreciate the frankness in your comment,and the advice therein.

After the death of Kirie,I was VERY angry,upset,betrayed,a total mess.

Also,some ejit came & 'destroyed' me.I was seriously HATING him.But now I've come around it,and have started to pray for him instead.This,of course,was partly because of what was dicussed at the last LM. 'Love the unloveable'.Though I'd like to add 'in your eyes',because no one is unloveable in His.
That's the difference.

So I'm still learning,what love is.

People marry because of love.
& then a few years down the road,they get a divorce.
That is not love.That is infactuation.

Love is {or should be} unconditional.
Honestly speaking,I don't think that'd ever be possible between human & human.
It can only occur from the Savior to the saved.Not even from the saved to the savior.

What do I mean?
God can forever love us unconditionally.But can we say we love Him unconditionally? I can't say that.All I can do,is to try.& I think,it's not the result that matters,but the process.The fact that we've taken the first step to try, is enough for Him.Otherwise,He would never have said He loved us.

Other than loving God,we have to love our neighbors as ourselves.
And YES.that includes everyone you come into contact with.
Your friends,family,colleagues,bosses...
even the person who cuss you from one end of the Earth to another.

Can you do it?
I am willing to try.
He will do the rest.

Story.

2008-06-30T16:33:00.003+08:00

Sad but touching.....

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.

Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.

Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the
following weeks..

DAY 1:
They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.
DAY 4:
They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.
DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..
DAY 14:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The
fortune teller said: 'My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily.' Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.
DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.
DAY 28:
They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.
DAY 29:
11:37 pm
Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..

Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine, thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...

20 minutes later... a stranger approached Jasmine.

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.

11:57pm;The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.

Jasmine read the letter which says:
Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine...

Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..
'Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cant do this to me
Then the clock strikes 12 Daniel's heart stop pumping THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...

****************************************

Always love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...

A Father's letter to His children

2008-06-21T21:28:00.004+08:00

The Cry of a Fathers Heart From Genesis to Revelation

The words you are about to experience are true
They will change your life if you let them
For they come from the very heart of God
He loves you, and He is the Father you have been looking for all your life
This is His love letter to you...

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you ~ Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up ~ Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways ~ Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered ~ Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image ~ Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being ~ Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring ~ Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived ~ Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation ~ Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book ~ Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live ~ Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made ~ Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb ~ Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born ~ Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me ~ John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love ~ 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you ~ 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father ~ 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could ~ Matthew 7:11
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand ~ James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs ~ Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope ~ Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love ~ Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ~ Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing ~ Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you ~ Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession ~ Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul ~ Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things ~ Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me ~ Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart ~ Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires ~ Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine ~ Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager ~ 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles ~ 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you ~ Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart ~ Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes ~ Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth ~ Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus ~ John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed ~ John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being ~ Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you ~ Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins ~ 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled ~ 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you ~ 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love ~ Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me ~ 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again ~ Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen ~ Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father ~ Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is ~ Will you be my child? ~ John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you ~ Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

"Father's Love Letter Used by permission of Father Heart Communications

The Heart

2008-06-12T13:48:00.003+08:00

"Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began,"I'll open up your heart..."
"You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted.
The surgeon looked up, annoyed.
"I'll cut your heart open," he continued,to see how much damage has been done..."
"But when you open up my heart,you'll find Jesus in there," said the boy.
The surgeon looked to the parents, who sat quietly.
"When I see how much damage has been done, I'll sew your heart and chest back up,
and I'll plan what to do next."
"But you'll find Jesus in my heart.
The Bible says He lives there. The hymns all say He lives there.
You'll find Him in my heart."
The surgeon had had enough.
"I'll tell you what I'll find in your heart.
I'll find damaged muscle, low blood supply, and weakened vessels.
And I'll find out if I can make you well."
"You'll find Jesus there too. He lives there."
The surgeon left.The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta,damaged pulmonary vein, widespread muscle degeneration.
No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.
Therapy:painkillers and bed rest.
Prognosis:here he paused, "death within one year."
He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said.
"Why?" he asked aloud. "Why did You do this? You've put him here;
You've put him in this pain;and You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"
The Lord answered and said,
"The boy, My lamb, was not meant for your flock for long,
for he is a part of My flock, and will forever be.
Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and will be comforted as you cannot imagine.
His parents will one day join him here,and they will know peace,
and My flock will continue to grow."
The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was hotter.
"You created that boy, and You created that heart. He'll be dead in months. Why?"
The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb, shall return to My flock, for He has done his duty;
I did not put My lamb with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb."
The surgeon wept.
The surgeon sat beside the boy's bed; the boy's parents sat across from him.
The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?
"Yes," said the surgeon.
"What did you find?" asked the boy.
"I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.

What matters.

2008-06-12T12:38:00.005+08:00

Did you know?About 7% of Brazilians are named Jesus.

Thus,it's not Jesus,

but Jesus Christ that matters.

Prayer Requests

2008-06-10T19:05:00.003+08:00

Prayer Request;
-That Yuki would be able to cope with his workload. =)
-Journey mercy for WM kor2's trip to HK & Macau next wk. =D
-Nakedi's campaign launch.

`Loves.

2008-06-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

"I advice you to hang onto being Christian."

Hmmmmmmmmmmm.I'd wish to,too.I know that it won't be easy,the Christian walk..But I don't know why,I seem to be filled with SO MANY questions,doubts,and what nots.It's REALLY HORRENDOUS,I wouldn't wish it on any of my enemies. =x

I really wonder if I am any better than a non-believer.Although I have chosen to take Him as my personal savior,I still have lots of doubts,and very little faith..I don't even know how to pray. )): And yeah.I wonder what's faith.then Yuki gave me Hebrews 11:1. Okayyy.That explains it.A little.I hate how I am so full of questions,but have such little capability to answer them.Makes me feel real useless. ))):

Anyways,this is an excerpt of my letter,from my Mentor;Geofferey:

'Remember this path you have chosen is not always a path full of easiness,but in reality,the hardest route to follow.But do you not wonder why there are so many people still believing in Him?Why there are so many people willing to carry this cross of salvation?'

Well,actual fact is that I DO.In fact,more often than you'd think I will. =x sighs.I am questioning my conviction as well.Why I first believed.

I think it was more for acceptance;a place I belong,where I can be me..I want to find my identity, and be able to live with it,with my head held high.Because what I think of me now,I don't think I deserve a place in His Kingdom.

It's so easy to say,to advice,to quote.But how many of us can really do what we preach?

Stories of Samson & Paul (Saul) gives hope that even the most vile of mankind can be accepted, so long as they confess..But they didn't seem to have much doubts..

Job was a man of character and strength,that even when everything seemed to be gone,he still found strength to praise the Lord.His is a story that shows God is with us through every circumstance,He will let the devil get away with doing anything to us,SO LONG as he doesn't take our lives.It seems to highlight the old cliche;"whatever can't kill you will only serve to make you stronger." Seems to me as though Job was an example of how to be in the world,yet not of the world.

Nicodemus was one who had PLENTY of doubts..But was enlightened in the end.

I felt as though I can relate to this character..Though I may not have memorized the Bible,I do know what I can do.Or can't.But I still question it,and sometimes do it so others would get off my back..

I only hope that now that I've realized this,I'll be able to move on,and improve myself.To be able to grow in my walk with Him..

I don't know how to go about getting involved in an accountability group.Who am I accountable to?Myself & He who is within me..Is that not so?Who else would be interested in my life,since neither my relatives nor family are Christians?.

2008-06-05T13:56:00.003+08:00

A church is a hospital for souls

Don't expect to go and not find anyone without at least as many problems as you have yourself.

If someone is hypocritical then church is the perfect place to get set free

Love more, look for faults less

If you want to be touched by God reach out and touch someone with His love

Love the unlovely

Be an encourager - people don't need to be told what their problems are but instead they are looking for answers so point them to Jesus for He is their answer

Support your church, it takes a lot of finances to pay utilities, salaries, supplies etc.

Be quick to forgive, give as much mercy as you yourself need (it's usually more than we think)

Don't take offense, see the people who hurt you through Jesus's eyes and your heart will quickly change.

Or as the Lord put it so very well- Love ye one another even as I have loved you-

2008-05-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Why is adultery & polygamy looked upon with such contempt and thought to be a sin,when Abraham had many wives?

If we all descended from Adam & Eve,and get married,isn't that incest?

The different races,did it come about as a result of GOd's punishment for earlier men who tried to build the babel tower?

So many questions,I need answers..

Lord,please guide the right people to answer these questions..

2008-05-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

Tattoo..

These few days I have been convinced that I want a tattoo.
A simple cross,with a crown of thorns.

Why do I want one?

Because the process of getting one would be difficult,as with my decision to become a Christian - my family totally objected.

Also,the choice of the image-I am to carry my own cross (as a significance,nothing else),and the crown represents the one who died for me,the one who was ridiculed.I just want to remind myself that even if I get ridiculed for my life,so what?My saviour has gone through it.

Thirdly,the pain of getting a tattoo,it represents my Christian walk;it's not going to be an easy adaptation.I have to change my lifestyle,my habits.

Fourth,the stigma of getting a tattoo is akin,but does not equate to,the one of being a Christian. When one sees another with a tattoo,they almost immediately think that the individual is 'bad', a 'delinquent',etc.Similarly,the society at large seems to be in disagreement with Christianity,they have a preconception that Christians must be like this,they must do that,etc.

Therefore,I want a physical reminder that whatever I do in public,I will be judged for it.Not only for who I am,but also by the things I believe in.I believe that getting one would help change and mould me..

2008-05-26T10:54:00.002+08:00

1. If God is your co-pilot - swap seats.
2. "Pray" is a four-letter word you can say anywhere - except in public schools.
3. Man's way leads to a hopeless end - God's way leads to an endless hope..
4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.
5. To be almost saved is to be totally lost.
6. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma - but never let him be the period.
7. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.
8. When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty.
9. God doesn't want shares of your life - He wants a controlling interest.
10. We don't change God's message - His message changes us.
11. When God ordains, He sustains.
12. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.
13. Exercise daily - walk with the Lord.
14. Coincidences happen when God chooses to remain anonymous.
15. Wisdom has two parts - 1) having a lot to say 2) not saying it.
16. Never give the devil a ride - he will always want to drive.
17. He who angers you controls you.
18. Deciding not to choose Jesus is still making a choice.
19. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Loves, :)

2008-05-19T15:22:00.003+08:00

These were the questions;
Where are the people you call friends,
when you truly need them?
Where do lonely people go,
When they feel oh-so-sad?
Where do the abandoned go,
When they finally can't hold back their tears anymore?

& this is my personalreply;
Even if no one wants me,
I have a special friend.
Though the world may one day forsake me,
He will always be mine.
When I am lonely,
All I need is my quiet time.
When I am sad,
He will be my listening ear.
No matter how many times I disappoint him,
He will be forever faithful,
His name is Jesus.

Was discussing the book of Job with Ps Bertram yesterday,albeit briefly,cause he's a busy man.hahaha.Anyways,from the book of Job,I reckoned that the bottom line is that GOD has faith in His created beings.If you think that is wonderful,check this out:We can also be assured that whatever GOD brings us to,He will bring us through.Isn't that an amazing God we are talking about?

Ok,I'll be intro-ing two songs that I think has relevance to my life so far. (=
1)Serious (Joy Williams)
2)One Man Revival (Bob Carlisle)

Serious
Do you ever get the feelingPeople think you're crazy
Cause you trust what they can't see
Do you ever get the feeling
People think you're shallow
And you will change what you believe
But I'm not here to argue
About what others think and feel
Cause I'm not ashamed to tell anyone
What I know to be real

I'm serious about the stand I'm taking
Serious about the choice I'm making
Serious about the things that I believe
I'm serious about the talk I'm talking
The evidence is in the walk I'm walking
Serious about love and purity
I'm serious as I can be

I'm not the first to meet with laughter
And resistance from a disbelieving crowd
But I got to meet it head on
I'm just gonna keep on
Won't let it get me down
I'm not here to give up
Jesus didn't give up on me
Even when the goin' gets rough
I've promised God that I'll be
Won't change my mindGot to close the door
No time for goin' back
To what I had before
I'm so tired of playin' all these games
Cause the more I see what You mean to me
The more I want to say

I'm serious about the stand I'm taking
Serious about the choice I'm making
Serious about the things that I believe
I'm serious about the talk I'm talking
The evidence is in the walk I'm walking
Serious about love and purity
I'm serious as I can be

This is what I have been wanting to say for quite awhile,just that I didn't really know how to put it.I've taken longer than many others,to come where I am now.I was in lots of crossroads before I became a christian,and yet when I thought it'd be easier once I am Christian,where I once met crossroads,I now meet roadblocks.People are just so skeptical about faith.But only because they don't know the real meaning of faith.Faith,is not blind belief.Faith is,the trust in God and in His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures.With faith comes salvation,and it is a personal choice that only we can make for ourselves.

One Man Revival
No greater love, no lesser grace
No greater distance than the one that I have made
You crave my heart and miss our quiet time alone
Have I become as hard as stone?

I need a one-man revival
A renewing of my heart
To capture me before I stray too far
It's the one thing I cry for
And the only way I know
Is a one-man revival in my soul (heart)

I know I've turned away it seems
But You pursue me while I'm busy chasing dreams
My dreams aren't worth the sacrifice of my first love
What I should be dreaming of...

I need a one-man revival
A renewing of my heart
To capture me before I stray too far
It's the one thing I cry for
And the only way I know
Is a one-man revival in my soul (heart)

I'm disappointed at how my perfect world should be
But if I'm gonna see a change (really gonna see a change)
There's got to be a change in me

I need a one-man revival
A renewing of my heart
To capture me before I stray too far
It's the one thing I cry for
And the only way I know
Is a one-man revival in my soul (heart)

No matter how we try to run away from God,he will never forsake us..He is gentle in His guidance,and patient in the wait for our return.Because he has faith in us.Isn't it strange?How fast the human heart changes..During my time in SERVE,I set aside two months for Him,doing daily quiet time & such.Yet after that two months,when school started,I had excuses to not do quiet time;I forgot,I was busy,I was tired,..& the list can go on & on.

But as I mentioned,they remain excuses,and are not reasons.Yet though I had changed,he did not falter in 'chasing' after me..Gently I felt the tugging of conscience in my heart;why have I neglected the most important person in my life?Haven't I realized,that without His sacrifice,I wouldn't have been able to do the things I am now?That I wouldn't even be alive?Why is it that I have enough energy to go out with friends on weekends,but cannot muster it to flip through the pages of the Bible?That I can finish reading Harry Potter in less than a day,but not the Bible in two months?And why is it that I can manage to work out time to go out with friends,but not the time to do quiet time,to communicate with Him?Should I be ashamed of myself?Indeed I am.

And the last stanza really stands out,because I was really tired of people that keep mocking my stand,people that doubt.However,as it says;
'But if I'm gonna see a change
There's got to be a change in me'
I think it reminds us that we should be the change that we want to see (in the world). We can whine and grumble about the things that don't go our way,but will it help?Not in the least bit.Therefore,we have to change our mindset.Change ourselves,so that when people look at us, They'll know we are Christians.

Matthew 5:13-15
13"You are the salt of the earth,but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trampled under people’s feet.
14"You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.
15Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house.

2008-05-13T10:13:00.003+08:00

Psalm 128:3-4

3Your wife will be like a fruitful vine
within your house;
your children will be like olive shoots around your table.
4Behold, thus shall the man be blessed who fears the LORD.

What that means is that whoever that fears the Lord,and does good in His name,you will be blessed.Isn't it amazing that when God loves & showers his blessings upon you,He does the same for the generations after you.

So do the right thing,and you & the rest will be blessed. (=

I pray today;
-That I'll have the patience to be able to wait to the the right things in His time.
-That more people will come to Christ with a personal conviction.
=> & not cause they're just following someone (parents/friends/'other half').
-That I'll have the courage to move on,the determination to let whatever happen in the past remain in the past.
-That I can do things in His name that'd build a solid reputation for Christianity.

I want to make my father in Heaven proud.
He is the one who sees me as I am.
He is the one to takes me as I am.
Results don't matter,I am His child & that's all he cares about.
If I can attain results,that would be a bonus.

2008-05-06T11:03:00.003+08:00

Discipleship; and what it entails.
According to Amandaz's brain. (:
(Pardon my lack of memory in relation to the verses of the story quoted.)

I think,that the very first lesson,and the most impertant aspect,in discipleship is obedience.Just like how the fishermen had to put down their nets,to follow Christ.Amazing,isn't it?That they'd put down their livelihood,to follow a man they barely knew?It is the spirit of these men that we need.

I am not talking about putting down your studies,or jobs.I am talking about following the commandments in the bible,and trying our utmost to do things to glorify His name.
I am talking about,lifting your joy & your burdens to Him above. I am talking about absolute trust in a being you can't see,but know is there.

Do you dare to take the leap of faith?
Because if you do,you can be sure that He'll hold you,and make sure that you won't fall. & even if you do fall,you can be sure that He'll be the first to catch you. Sometimes,he uses your temporal fall to bring to your attention issues you've been trying to avoid.Because,avoidance is not the way to solve any problems.

What,is a leap of faith?
It is the instance when you let Christ be your stronghold,when you let him take complete control of your life.When you give your all to His cause.Why is it a leap of faith?Because it requires you to place your emotions,trust,everything to an untangible being you can't see,but can feel.It is letting Christ take the driver seat in our lives,it is the letting go of selfish desires and intentions.
It is the dying to oneself,and the awakening to His cause.

2008-05-05T22:16:00.002+08:00

If GOD is really three in one,
how can it be possible that he prays to himself before he dies?
How can he manifest Himself,to himself? (In the garden,can't remember vs.)
How is it possible that he can be everywhere,anytime?

If GOD loves us,why does he let us suffer?
Why aren't babies born guiltless?
Why are we made to pay the sins of our ancestors,from the time we're in our mother's womb?
I mean,how can we be fearfully and wonderfully made,yet at the same time be faced with babies with deformities?

What is beauty?
Is is a 'look'?
Or is it a characteristic we posssess?

Are we conventionally beautiful?
With just the right shade of make-up,the cool clothes,material possessions,and the 'right' body shape & proportions?

Or are we beautiful because we see the good in others?
Because we help others realize their potential?
Because we live our lives with morals?

Are the handicapped more beautiful?
Because they appreciate every moment in their lives,because they learn the meaning of llife in a different aspect?

Chew on that.
By the way,I need answers.
._________.

Fellowship.

2008-05-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

Romans 1:12
That we may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith, both yours and mine.

Romans 12:5
So we,though many, are one body in Christ, and individually members one of another.

James 5:16
Therefore,confess your sins to one another and pray for one another,that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working

What is fellowship?
Fellowship is a congregation of like minded people
who spur each other on to do good. That's only my opinion.

I think that a fellowship should serve to bring us closer to Him,and stands as a basis of a group of
trusted and supportive people that we know we can count on in times of tribulations.

& why do we need a support group?
Because at times when we're at our weakest,times we think nobody cares,that's the time we need others most!We cannot give into satan's lies,that we don't need anyone.

It is said,"cast all ye burdens on me,and I will give you rest."
~~Sorry,can't remember exact phrase & verse~~
But the main point is,yes.Jesus said that.But while we need to have faith and trust in Him,we also need someone in our lives whom we can trust & confide in.Thus,we need our fellow brothers and sisters in christ,not just to keep us to Christ,but also to keep us sane.

After saying all these,I'd end with this;
Humans may try to seek out their 'other half' to fill their emotional needs. But there is no one else who can fulfil our innermost needs,other than Christ Himself.
Because there is a God-shaped hole in us that can never be filled by anyone but Him.

2008-05-04T17:11:00.004+08:00

Hmmmmm.Lately I find that I jump into conclusions too soon.
I remembered my biological family,but forgot the christian community.
& it is that,that I so needed,that I craved.
A company of like minded people...

Rabindranath Tagore
"Let this be my last word, but I trust in thy love
Men are cruel, but Man is kind.
A mind all logic is like a knife all blade. It makes the hand bleed that uses it."

The first line is what I'd want to be able to say when I'm at my deathbed.
Simply put,I'd want that to be my last declaration of my trust in Him who never fails those that seek His presence.

"men are cruel,BUT man is kind."
*note:man here refers to mankind.
I think that the result of this sentence is that when men gather in a group, they want acceptance.Therefore,they'll do anything to be part of a group. And when they're part of a group,they'll tend to want to be the creme of the crop. & thus become ruthless.
Yet when they are alone,there's nothing to fight for,to prove their 'worthiness', and therefore all pretence is dropped,and they are nice & harmonious.
So yes,I think that ruthlessness is a pretence for one to use to get another off their back.

Credibility is intellectual;
Trust is visceral.

What that means is that credibility is based on logical thinking,
whereas trust is based on instincts. (:
Linking back to the last line of the first quote,
it is therefore apparent that logic is not all that there is.
Because when we only have room for logic and nothing else,
we tend to shut out other important things like communications and emotions, which will lead to our eventual downfall.

2008-05-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

Today's topic is on acceptance.
Why?
Because I am trying to find acceptance.
To find a place where I truly belong.
A place where I am judged on the same scales
people use on themselves and all others.

Proverbs 14:8-10
8The wisdom of the prudent is to discern his way,
but the folly of fools is deceiving.
9 Fools mock at the guilt offering,
but the upright enjoy acceptance.
10The heart knows its own bitterness,
and no stranger shares its joy.

I think that what the passage is saying is that a wise person will seek to plan his ways whereas a foolish man will try to lie/cheat their way through.

And when the righteous man does something wrong,he would try to rectify and salvage the situation,whereas the foolish man will scorn at any such actions,and refuse to do likewise,for fear of being mocked by others.

I interpret the last verse to be saying that only we know our own feelings,
and no one else can ever second the thoughts in our mind.

The other day in class,I made a rash decision to rank my friends above my family.
This,I rationalized within myself,is because I am an only child.
Therefore,friends within my generation can understand me better,and help me cope.

Today,I think,HOW STUPID I WAS.
Because I realized,that family ties are more important.
A friend can be counted upon to share the happy moments.
But what about tribulations?
When things happen that we think is the end of 'our internal world',
who can we go to? Family.
Because the bond we share transcends all generation gaps.
Sure.
You hate your parents' naggings.
They hate the way you blast your radio.
But what if,there comes a day you can't hear their naggings anymore?
Do you think they'll care that your radio is too loud,if one day you ran away from home?
In both instances,I think both parties would prefer the noise,
and most importantly,the presence of each other.

Am I not right?

2008-05-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

Today,due to some issues,I shall be sharing on forgiveness.
I mean,I don't know how people usually do their quiet time,but I am a person guided primarily by emotions.So I do quiet time to seek a solution for my probing mind. (:
'Nuff said,all the verses used are in ESV. :D

Matthew 18:21-22
21Then Peter came up and said to him, "Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him?As many as seven times?"
22Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.

John 20:23
23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven ; if you withhold forgiveness from any, it is withheld."

Basically,the issue that bugs me time & again is that;
If the person keeps sinning against me in the same way,
Should I forgive?And how many times must I forgive?
Do I only forgive Christians?Or non-Christians as well?
It may seem like such a trivial & duhhhhh question,but it is A LOT to ponder about,to me.

So my answer is derived from the first verse.
Which means,I have to forgive them REGARDLESS.
That is,if they are sincere.I think?
can someone please clarify with me?
Anyways,as to why we should forgive?
It's cause Christ first forgave us.
And like what the second verse says;
It's external if you forgive,and internal if you don't.
What I gathered from that is that,if we forgive,both parties are happy.
[& He will be happy as well.]
But if we choose not to forgive,we end up hurting ourselves.
Cause the person may not know you're angry,and you will keep revisiting the issue within your own mind,and remind yourself of unecessary hurts.

The thing is,what if,it was your parents that you're angry with?
Well,if that's the case,all the more you should try to forgive them.
Because that is no longer a choice for you.
It's a must to do so.
Because forgiving your parents is part of honoring & respecting them,as what the 5th commandment tells us to do.

The key to forgiving someone is;
1)Understand what is causing you pain.
2)Acknowledge your part in the problem.
3)Try to see things from the other party's perspective.
4)Recognize who's going to be hurt by your choice when you don't forgive.
5)Talk things out.

Will elaborate more on the keys of forgiving when the time comes,and when I have more time.

2008-05-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

Didn't go for DG.
Was like slacking and pondering for a moment.
Then decided not to go.
Oh wells.
Maybe I'll arrange something with Yvonne someday.

I don't know.
I guess I am breaking away.
I want to find reasons to regain my conviction.
Is there such a term?
I don't know.

Rather confused.
You can say I am upset,but I know nothing will make Him love me less.
Yet.What did I do to deserve His love?
Why did he die so others are saved?
He has taken Himself out of the gates of heaven to die for the unworthy.
I wonder how many of us can do the same?
Like,get persecuted & remain strong in the faith?
Sacrifice ourselves for an 'unworthy' sinner (albiet in our eyes)?
I wonder if I myself can take that step,when the time comes...

What is unconditional love?
What is grace & mercy?
What is forgiveness?
What is the purpose of mankind's existence?

2008-04-30T11:02:00.000+08:00

I wonder if I should go for Dg (disciple group).

It's like my schedule seems packed.
He will make a way...?
I mean,there's bowling & write IG to attend,and I am trying my best to go for crusades every monday.And Church on sundays.
I am not making excuses,but it is difficult.

I love to be in the company of Christians.
I love fellowship time.
But I am a christian in a non christian home environment.
People think it's easy to be a christian.
BUT they are so wrong.

It is easy to say you are a christian.
But it is not easy to lead a christian lifestyle.

I feel that all I have said so far are excuses,but it is my form of reflection.

Ben,You sound like what my pastor would have said,
'Obey your mother.'

2008-04-29T12:12:00.000+08:00

Back to posting here!
Been a long while.
See,this is what happens,when you let life get the better of you.
You become sucked into the whirlwind life throws you,and like a manic,you lose control.

Looking back,I've been quoting lots of verses.
But though I know the meaning,I can't really say that I can apply it.
So what I want to do now,is to share testimonies & thanksgivings.
& apply verses whenever necessary.

Ok,so what am I glad for?
I am glad I got into Rp (finally,after a long time.)
I mean,after awhile,when the dust settles,you begin to see some good in things.
Like how I was disappointed when I went for bowling trials but didn't get into school team.
But I am glad I made new friends,as well as found a brother in christ. (=
& he's now strengthening my resolve,to stay in Christ.

The thing is,I am starting to stray from the path.
And the worst revelation is when you know,yet don't make it a point to change. )=
So I pray now,that I may regain the passion for His work.
And to let the past remain in the past.

Comparisons.

2008-04-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

Romans 14:10-12
10Why do you pass judgment on your brother? Or you, why do you despise your brother? For we will all stand before the judgment seat of God;
11For it is written,"As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to me,and every tongue shall confess to God."
12So then each of us will give an account of himself to God.

John 21:20-22
20Peter turned and saw the disciple whom Jesus loved following them,the one who had been reclining at table close to him and had said, "Lord, who is it that is going to betray you?"
21When Peter saw him, he said to Jesus,"Lord, what about this man?"
22Jesus said to him, "If it is my will that he remain until I come, what is that to you?You follow me!"

Basically,it means that we should avoid comparing ourselves to others,because God created us as unique individuals.Therefore,when we find our own special God given talents,we wouldn't fall into the state of judging others.

In the first verse,we are warned to not to think of ourselves as higher/more superior than our neighbour.This is because each of us will eventually face God and give Him a personal account of our lives on judgement day.And then again,why should that stop us from thinking of ourselves as better than our neighbors?I think this is best summed up in Matthew 7:2,where it says:For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

In the second verse,Jesus told his disciple to not be concerned about the life of others (how they are living it,) but rather on his own,and to just follow Him.In the same way,Jesus calls us to travel our distinctive journey with Him,without being bothered by the earthly things around us.

Ecclesiastes 5:19-20
19Everyone also to whom God has given wealth and possessions and power to enjoy them, and to accept his lot and rejoice in his toil—this is the gift of God.
20For he will not much remember the days of his life because God keeps him occupied with joy in his heart.

This is the verse that I find reassuring,that when God blesses us,we will not have a problem in following in His ways,and thus making our lives more enjoyable and comfortable in this lifetime.

Whose Side Are You Leaning On?

2008-04-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

Does anyone know this song?Sounds kiddish,but IMO,there is no such category as Kid or adult praise (:

Whose Side Are You Leaning On
Whose side are you leaning on?
Leaning on the Lord's side.
Whose side are you leaning on?
Leaning on the Lord's side.

I lean,I lean,I lean,
Leaning on the Lord's side.

This song reminds me of two things (:

1)When we're down,or just need to be comforted,we can go to him. :D
For it is said,"the Lord is my rock." Remember,and be reassured.For even if the world forsakes you,He never will.

2)It reminds me that we have to make a clear stand of whose side we are on.
There is no sitting on the fence.It's either you're on His side,or not.And if you are not,you are His enemy's son. All of us are sons of man (Adam),but when we accept Christ,we're also God's children! [Sorta like a promotion~ :D ] Yepps.And well,just remember,Satan is the Father of all lies.He'd so love to convince you that you have control over all the situations,especially when you are not.He led a third of all heaven's angels by his deceit.Let's make a concious effort to not add to his legion of the fallen.I mean,is he really that creative? NO! Why?Simple.What sin has man commited today that is not a repelica of what happened way before we were born? Say our ancestor's times? None.It may be a variation,yes.But not a new category by itself.Satan has certain powers,but not all.

I am leaning on the Lord's side.
Are you?

Charisma & leadership.

2008-04-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

"Even if you want me to be a fool,you have to give me a reason to do so.If you want me to crawl, I'll crawl.If you want me to bark,I'll bark.But you'll have to give me a valid reason for doing so."

Lol.And have you ever wondered?Why we follow certain people's leadership? It's not wrong to be a follower,but at least know why you are following one instead of the other.Be clear on your stand,and let it not waiver because of something someone said.So saying that,there's a difference,a very fine line,between being obstinate ~~or if you will,stubborn~~ and standing up for what you believe in.

Being obstinate,is being unreasonable.Like if you just want things to be done your way,regardless of situation.But taking a stand for what you believe in,is having the ability to answer for your opinion,without being overtly defensive.Otherwise,you might run the risk of losing the person's interest,and trust.No one likes to be run down in public.What everybody need to bear in mind,is the importance of going into any discussion with an open mind.

I mean,have you noticed,that some mega church(es) which may not have sound teachings,yet they attract a huge crowd?Ever wondered why?IMO,it's 'cause they have such charismatic leaders.Who can reach out to the people.Who can bring across a diffcult message to a layman crowd.It's the connection,the rapport they have with their audience,which attracts people,not necessarily so because of what they teach.But how they teach.

Therefore,wouldn't you agree that leaders have the added responsibilty to make sure what they teach is correct? Leaders should not worry too much about critisims,'cause when it happens,it just means that people have been taking note of what you're doing,and are trying to tell you areas where you can improve on.Thus, it's important to be able to discern between negative and constructive critisisms.

So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my Lord
You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.

Treasures.

2008-04-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

And He took my place,
Knowing He'd be crucified,
And You loved, You loved,
A people undeserving.

I want to know you more,
I want to see your face.

That's about how I feel now..I WANT to see you.And immediately,at that.Now.Right now.
Such is the world we're living in.Everything done must not be anything less than instantaneous.
Otherwise,you risk all that you have-wealth,position,power.But all that is nothing,if you possess all but sprituality.Isn't it?For we came with nothing,and will go with nothing.So,all the material possessions will only tide us through this lifetime on Earth.Is a fleeting moment of empty happiness worth an eternity? For there is a God shaped hole in us,that cannot,and will never,be replaced by anything or anyone else.
Chew on that.

Matthew 6:19-21
19"Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Spiritual growth results from trusting Jesus Christ. "The righteous man shall live by faith" (Galatians 3:11). A life of faith will enable you to trust God increasingly with every detail of your life, and to practice the following:
G Go to God in prayer daily (John 15:7).
R Read God's Word daily (Acts 17:11); begin with the Gospel of John.
O Obey God moment by moment (John 14:21).
W Witness for Christ by your life and words (Matthew 4:19; John 15:8).
T Trust God for every detail of your life (1 Peter 5:7).
H Holy Spirit - allow Him to control and empower your daily life and witness (Galatians 5:16,17; Acts 1:8).

~http://www.jesus2020.com/ (: Great site! :D

Thanksgiving & Prayer Request(s)

2008-03-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

Thanksgiving
I want to thank God for... ~~many many things~~
I am really glad that I could spend three months in a christian environment,where I can afford to set aside time to do daily devotions.And that's so called 'part of the job' too.Ain't it cool? And I suppose,the whole system's different as well.The secular world is result oriented,but I've been exposed to an environment that seeks to affirm all the individuals.Where we are treated as real human beings,instead of some freakazoid that produces maximum results;another slab of flesh. And though it works great,I'm forced to admit that the real world just doesn't work that way.I want to thank Him,for the people I've been in contact with,for the people I got to know,during the past three months.Though everything good will eventually end,I am greatful to have a chance to experience even the most fleeting moment of joy. I thank Him that although there were many times where I felt that the situations were above me,out of my control,He still planted different people at different points of my life,who helped me grow,and truly wanted the best for me.As well as those who were there to listen to my rants,and did not laugh at me in my moments of weaknesses.

Prayer Request
I hope to be able to make it to church on a constant basis.

I hope to continue serving in Ljoy.

I want to learn how to be in the world,yet not of the world.

I need to have more patience in dealing with my parents.

I need to resolve the issue I have with my dad,ASAP.Though I just want to be an escapist.

Please let me have the self discipline to continue in my daily devotion.

I pray for the children,in general,that they will be able to overcome satan and his 'tricks',and be part of the legion of God's angels.

I pray also for the people I've met in SERVE and in church,that God's hand would be upon them,that they can find favor with Him.And that He will continue to bless them,so that they can be blessings to others as well.

I hope to apply what I've learnt in SERVE.

I've realized that the closer my walk with Him,the more judgemental the people around me seem to be.Help me to be able to rise through it all,with my head held high,and faith intact.

So You Would Come

2008-03-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

So You Would Come

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing you have done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts,broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

I love this song (: Like seriously.I first saw the lyrics yesterday,and wanted to cry.It's just SO touching. But I didn't,'cause I was in the office and it woulda been weird. :X

But isn't it amazing?That though we can't do anything to make Him love us more,yet once we dedicate our lives to His cause,there's nothing we've done that would make Him love us any less,let alone give up on us? (: I mean,how many people can we name with ultimate confidence that we know that can love us in spite of our flaws,and pasts? To be honest,don't we often try our best to hide our past,and 'let bygones be bygones'?Why do we do that?Because we are afraid,that once others know,they'll judge and critisize.Is that not so?

But rest assured,'cause so long as we take Christ as our personal savior,we will be loved.

|Break me|

2008-03-24T08:31:00.000+08:00

Break my heart for what breaks yours...

Yesterday was resurrection Sunday.It was something new,cause I found out that it's not Easter! Easter is actually a pagan worship event! 0_O But yeah,we get choco eggs on that day,to signify new life.SO, NO Easter Bunny~

Oh wells.

Is it a surprise?I learnt something from the kids in Ljoy,again. (:
They love abundantly,without restraint.They have love for EVERYONE.
No kidding.
I mean,I was observing while they were eating,playing & such.
The kids from different cultural backgrounds,they bond so effortlessly.It's not like it's racial harmony or something,but the kids,they make it a point to include everyone else. (: It's a great thing to take note of, cause people my age (and maybe older),they get bogged down by the simplest things,and usually tend to mix with the people whom we define as 'the same'. But the kids,they move on so fast!Like,they quarrel,but the next minute they'll fight to sit next to each other,and laugh & talk. AMAZING KIDS. I'll miss them loads. ):

I'll pray for you,while you're away,

Each night and day,I'll pray for you.

I'll pray for you,till troubles cease,

Then you and I will live in peace.

2nd Testimony. (:

2008-03-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

Now that SERVE's over,actually,since the 29th feb,I've got another testimony to share.Should I say another?
Cause IMO,testimonies should never,and can never,never end. :D

Anyway,this is the post-serve testimony.

Now that I've come to reflect about it,I think I truly thank God for pushing me to follow in His way.Well,just in case anyone gets the wrong idea,His push does not equate to the -pushpushSHOVE- Being the ever loving and merciful God he is,His 'push' is more like "Hey,this is a suggestion,follow this and work out your own solution. Are you game?" Indeed.And game I was so not,in the beginning.Why?

Cause even though I had really really wanted to go to church on Sundays,and part of SERVE meant that I have to go to church on Sundays,I gradually came to realize that all my favorite cartoon slots are on SUNDAYS! So I was like,oh man!can finally go to CHURCH!But cartoons? ): Yepp.So I guess I learnt what sacrifice meant early on in the journey with Him.(Ok,at this point,some might be like wth?What kind of sacrifice do you call that?!) But can I remind you guys,~~No,this seriously isn't an excuse I am making for myself~~ that I just became christian last year?So please,give me room to grow.And different people face different issues.What is small to you,may be HUGE to others. (: And however small the sacrifice,it still is one.Doesn't make it any more/less important.

I've also come to thank God,sincerely,for the people I've been blessed to have come across during the past two months or so;through them I've learnt SO much. (: Like,I always had a very negative mindset,so I always thought 'nobody likes me,they don't care if I died,much less hurt myself.' Especially so,during SERVE.I mean, sure,there were people who were concerned,some disgusted,I suppose,when they came to know that I do hurt myself for kicks.But it was those whom were concerned,that I questioned.I was like 'Is it genuine,or do they just want others to know they care?What will they gain from it?Why do they give a damn?' I'm sorry for thinking that way,but it's just the way I am ): And well,I suppose I'd be lying if I said I don't think that way anymore,but it's to a much smaller extent that I think this way,now.I just met someone yesterday,who showed me it wasn't.

Times when I want to give up,that's when I look to you most.
I want an answer.

I am really thinking that I should be more patient.Like who knows,maybe if I were,that auntie would have been more willing to share with me what happened.I cannot promise I'd be able to really help her,but I really could have provided her with a listening ear.I learnt that,most people just need others to listen to,rather than talk to,them.

And I wouldn't say that there has been a major transformation within me,but to a certain extent,I know I've been changed.I no longer just blame my parents for every argument we have.I guess,I realize I need to be less prideful.I mean,so what if I am?They're more than likely to be too.They are humans too.It's truly tempting to just say,THEY are my parents,they should teach through examples.BUT I have to remember that neither are Christians.But it's not to say that just cause they aren't Christians,they have nothing for me to look up to them for.Like the fact that they stayed married for 18 years,it's amazing! My own relationship only lasted 1 year and 10 months ): And yeah,though they didn't really like me getting into a relationship then,they still were kinda there for me when it was gone.And my dad paid for my education through the years,and my mum gave me my pocket money.And well,they brought me up.
Now,if only I can bring myself to say it to them.It'd be an epic blockbuster.

Aftermath. (:

2008-03-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Aiites,finally I am home. (:

I think the service was alright.Got rather confused,cause the schedule was somewhat changed at the last moment.But thank God,there was no screw up.I was really like really scared while I stood at the side waiting for my turn.So I prayed. :D Thank goodness,cos just as I read the last word,the last feet washer finished washing the feet and walked past me.I was like,OH PRAISE THE LORD~ Cause I started off reading too fast.

Kinda funny,as I think back to the series of events that occurred.Whilst I was standing at the side waiting for my turn,Ps Chee Seng was like, 'Violet's reading too fast,so maybe you'll have to read even slower.' I was like 0_0! heh.Then just as I read the first sentence,I saw Ps Bertram sort of like half wave half flap his hands, so I tried to slow my pace even more.hahas.It is,and let it remain so,for Your glory.

After the service,I was rather shocked when the people came up to thank us for reading,even the pastors and Rev Barry! 0_0! The people even said that we read well!I was like,me?read well?HAHAHA. :X But thanks :D

Then after that,I went to the bus stop opp Smss with Violet,and took 165.But either due to my night blindness ~~which I highly doubt I have~~,or due to my sotong-blurness,I actually thought that I had taken the wrong direction.It was only after I got off at Holland Village,that I realized I've made a stupid mistake. ): But it wasn't all that bad,cause I got to see Ps Florence and Ps David aboard the second 165,albiet a long long wait. haha,they stopped at Clementi too (:

Gotta reach SJC by 9am for Good Friday service tmr. :)

[Please,everybody who is reading,join in this prayer.For it is said that when two or more are gathered in His name,the prayer would be answered.SO please pleasePLEASE join in.]

Dear Lord,
Today at the canteen,I saw an old lady whom I recognized to be working in the school.I think she's a cleaner.
She's quite old,and I feel for her.She looked so sad today,and she was crying.I tried to talk to her,and maybe I wasn't patient enough,but she did not want to speak to me.Please remove whatever pain/hurt/sorrows that she may have kept in her heart.Lord,please show her your love,be it through others,or in your own way. Show her that she can find rest in you oh Lord,and place your comforting hand upon her.Please plant people whom she can talk to,in her life,that she may not be so burdened.
In Jesus name I pray,Amen.

Your everlasting mercy;it's incomprehensible.
Just lead and guide us,that we may be saved,through faith and good works.

Maundy Thursday.

2008-03-20T12:21:00.000+08:00

TODAY is Maundy Thursday!
Which means,simply put',I'll be on the pulpit.tonight.
Wheeees~ I am now using Ps Rachel's lappie,till she needs it.muahahs.
I suppose it doesn't help that I'm already breaking out in bouts of cold sweat,no kidding.
~~Man,that's how nervous I am.I hope I don't screw.~~

For the first time in my life,I'll be up,ON THE PULPIT! Ahhhhh~ [frets]

Lord,help calm the whirlwind within me,give me the courage to proudly proclaim your word.

Jehovah Shammah;

The Lord with us.

IMPO,this is Jesus's most significant portrayal of love towards his disciples.And according to the Word,we should follow and serve our fellow brothers and sisters.[Mark 10:45]

Hello SERVErs,~~[esp 13-Ds!]~~ does this verse sound familiar? (:

Are ~~you~~? (:

&This just about sums up everything. :D Thank you Jesus~

A lesson learnt

2008-03-17T18:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,for some reason, I felt particularly anti-social.The feeling was an absolute low,like I just want to be invisible.Or something to that extent.I was really convinced that nobody would have noticed if I disappeared. Like,be it now,or whenever.It doesn't matter.

So I became momentarily 自闭,and went to sit by myself in a corner in the canteen,after service.Cause barely after I started eating,De Qi came and talked for awhile,and Nat and another guy ~~sorry I cnt rmb ur name~~ came over for like five mins and then went out for lunch.Yet a little while later,I supposed I 'saved' her by telling her that Violet would be late.So she went to join her friends again,and I was alone again.

Yet,maybe I wasn't meant to be alone,even though I wanted to be.I guess He had other plans.Cause then I saw Amanda (Sim) and chatted with her for a ~~short~~ while.It was a rather nice convo,in which I found out that almost everyone else did better than me in O's.Yayness. Self reminder; Learn to draw strength from Him who gave you life.

Second lesson I learnt [during Ljoy],was when I 自闭 again,and went to peace room to read the picture Bible whilst the kidos were watching vcd in agape room.Nat was gonna go over so he asked me to too.Well he seemed appalled when I told him why I don't want to go next door. But he ~~forced~~ made me go next door,regardless.I mean,I didn't want to go over,because I didn't want to bond with the kids.Cause I don't think I can go back to help in Ljoy,once attachment's over,and school starts.For that reason,I didn't want to become emotionally attached to the kids.I mean.It'll just be me breaking my own heart.The kids,and people around, they prolly won't notice my absence.And even if they did,they wouldn't give a hoot.

But when I went over,He once again showed that He knows best what I should do.My heart just melted when I saw them.I almost couldn't control myself and my emotions,I nearly cried.Cause they are so innocent,and so pure.So trusting,and so adorable.Jonson&Angela,I'll miss you both..

Through this I've learnt,that we each have a responsibility;To train and nuture the young in our charge.

And maybe now I'll learn to focus my attention on the Bible,which I've really neglected.
Lord forgive me.

Questions.

2008-03-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

Easy vs. Hard

Why is it so hard to tell the truth

Yet so easy to tell a lie?

Why are we so sleepy in church but

Right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up?

Why is it so hard to talk about God

yet so easy to talk about nasty stuff?

Why is it so boring to look at a Christian magazine,

yet so easy to look at a nasty one?

Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e-mail,

yet we forward all of the nasty ones?

Why are the churches getting smaller

yet the bars and dance clubs are getting larger?

Indeed.Can someone come up with the answers [albeit the non-cliched ones,] and enlighten me?

Picked up a few books for reading. (: Boy,will I ever be so occupied.You can't accuse me of slacking now :D It's christian books,of course.And I'll be posting excerpts of what I read in my posts,when I get to post.Just a rough idea on what I am reading;

1)Being a woman of God [Ginger Gabriel]
2)Understanding the Bible [John Scott]
3)Relationships [Dean Sherman]
4)You too can change the world [Daphne Spraggett & Jill Johnstone]

The first two books were borrowed from Ps Rachel,who said I could take as long as I want to read the books, as long as I return them.Awrights.I have to agree,John Scott is quite a decent writer.However,IMO, Dean Sherman is just SO much better (: The last book's pretty cool,it's actually a prayer book.No kidding.I love love love it~ It's got background info on different countries,and short prayers for the people of each countries (:

I'd have to agree with Ps Bertram,that,whether or not the SERVE programme was successful,depends on how we live our lives after the programme has ended.Cause during the programme,everything was sort of all prepared for us.And,hmmmm.Eveangelism is through the way we live our lives,through action and speech,not just preaching.They go hand in hand. (:

I'll be doing scripture reading on thurs,please pray for me.I hope I won't be too nervous,and screw the whole sevice.I can't afford to do that. Please.

Faith.

2008-03-13T22:16:00.001+08:00

Can a person become a christian,without first being convicted?

This is a story that was emailed to me,that I think I should share.It's just SO relatable. (:

The DIFFERENCE between Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheistprofessor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?''Yes sir,' the student says.'So you believe in God?''Absolutely.''Is God good?''Sure! God's good.''Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?''Yes.''Are you good or evil?''The Bible says I'm evil.'The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for amoment.'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and youcan cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?''Yes sir, I would.''So you're good...!''I wouldn't say that.''But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Canyou answer that one?'The student remains silent.'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip ofwater from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?''Er...yes,' the student says.'Is Satan good?'The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.''Then where does Satan come from?'The student : 'From...God...''That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?''Yes, sir.''Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,correct?''Yes.''So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'The student: 'Yes.''So who created them?'The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe inJesus Christ, son?'The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses youuse to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seenJesus?''No sir. I've never seen Him''Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?''No, sir, I have not.''Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?''No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.''Yet you still believe in him?''Yes.''According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,son?''Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.''Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking aquestion of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?''Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.''And is there such a thing as cold?''Yes, son, there's cold too.''No sir, there isn't.'The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but wedon't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees belowzero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There isno such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than thelowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study whenit has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence ofheat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just theabsence of it.'Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,sounding like a hammer.'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing asdarkness?''Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is nightif it isn't darkness?''You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is theabsence of something. You can have low light, normal light, brightlight, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you haveNothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use todefine the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be ableto make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?''Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.'Flawed? Can you explain how?''You are working on the premise of duality,' the studentexplains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a goodGod and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as somethingfinite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain athought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of lifeis to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantivething. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.''Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that theyevolved from a monkey?''If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, youngman, yes, of course I do''Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at workand cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but apreacher?'The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the Commotion has subsided.'To continue the point you were making earlier to the otherstudent, let me give you an example of what I mean.'The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the classwho has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out intolaughter.'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have nobrain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,how can we trust your lectures, sir?'Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at thestudent, his face unreadable.Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'Iguess you'll have to take them on faith.''Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. Wesee it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or atleast it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describethe absence of God.God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'The professor sat down.

To simpilfy things,I think that God most certainly did not create evil,but evil existed because of man's fall. The apple,the apple. ): Yes,God made Satan.He must have known that Satan would revolt against Him,that he [satan] would cause mankind to sin.BUT,because He is a God of mercy and grace,He allowed Satan to have a chance to make his decision.And through the consequences of the fall of man,we are shown the extent of His grace and unconditional love, when He sent Christ to die on the Cross for our sins.What we have to understand,is that in those days,dying on the cross was reserved for the worst criminals of that era. Yet,Christ had done no wrong but was betrayed by his very own disciple,to die on the cross for our sins.So what we have now,is a choice. Will we choose to believe in Christ and follow in His ways?

Favorite Verses[Reasons]. ツ

2008-03-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

In Christ ALL are accepted (:

Reason to do daily devotion:

Acts 6:4

"But we will devote ourselves to prayer
and to the ministry of the Word."

Ok,so it doesn't really link to the TS,but I guess what I wanted to say is that since we are followers of the Word,
We should follow what is written in the Bible,as well as try to live the life of His followers.
Ok,I must warn you guys (who are reading),that my thoughts are rather disoriented now.~~That,in fact,is an understatement.~~

So back to the main topic,I guess I can link this to James 4:8a.From what I gathered,it seems to be saying that God will draw close to whoever that draws close to Him.I guess that makes sense,cause relationships are always a two-way thing.Hmmms.

Reason to never be afraid;regardless of situations.

2 Timothy 1:7;Psalm 121:7-8;1 John 5:18.

The first verse tells us that God did not give us a spirit of timidity,but a spirit of power,of love and self-discipline.Therefore we should not be afraid of the outcomes of life,but trust that everything will be fine in the Lord's hands.Isaiah 49:16 reiterates that every situation is within His control.
The second verse reassures that The Lord will keep you from all harm-He will watch over your life;the Lord will watch over your coming and going,both now and forever more.
The third highlights ~~perhaps~~ the most important message of all abovementioned verses in this category;I'm born of God,and the evil one cannot touch me!Meaning to say ~~I suppose~~,that just like in the case of Jesus & Job,the devil can tempt/test us,but he will never be given the authority to take our lives.Meaning to say,he can rob us of anything,except our freedom of choice and souls.

Choices we make

Can determine the make or break

of personal lives

Including our own.

Reason why we should never believe the lies that we're unworthy.

John 3:16-17 God my creator loves me!

John 15:15 Christ loves me and I'm His friend!

1 Corinthians 6:20 I've been bought with a price;I belong to God!

Ephesians 1:5 I've been adopted as God's child!

Colossians 1:14 I've been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins!

Bottom line is,if my creator loves me and has forgiven all my wrongdoings,who are to to point a finger at me?

And what makes you think you're worthy enough to call me unworthy?

To all who face fears,stress,or just need to fill your void;

Psalm 62:1

My soul finds rest in God alone,my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and salvation.He is my fortress,I'll never be shaken.

Personal responsibility.

2008-03-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

1 Peter 3:15-16 [NIV]
15But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,

16keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.

Basically,what I mean is that,by ourselves,we're like machines without (brains).Kinda like,erm,robots.We go through life with few (limited) emotions,and become self-centered.Thus,when we believe in,and walk with Him,He is our brain,our sight and everything else,that we may be close to what is perfect.close to,because no matter how hard we try,we are still flawed beings.~~and sure,we have Adam&Eve to thank for that.But that's besides the point.~~

So when we call ourselves Christians,we mean to tell the world that we are the followers of Christ,His disciples. And so we have to uphold the responsibility of maintaining a good image,that others might want to follow,and be saved.For He is the way,the truth and the light,there is no other way to heaven except through Him alone. Thus in our daily life,we have to make a conscious effort to be mindful of the way we do things,how we handle situations,especially in terms of our speech during times of frustrations. And yes,that means;NO SWEARING or cursing ,even under our breaths.Because,even what others might not hear,you can bet your last dollar that He hears.

The crux of this passage is that;

Even (and especially) if we get persecuted/mocked by others for following in His ways,we should all the more persevere and disregard the rest.

Jesus first,others second,then yourself! (:

Search Me.

2008-03-07T20:30:00.000+08:00

The Lord;He knows.

Psalm 139
1O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
5You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.
7Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11If I say,"Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
12even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.
13For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
14I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious to me are your thoughts,O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.
19Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood,depart from me!
20They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain!
21Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies.
23Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
24And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!

Due to some issues which have cropped up,I was having a HUGE headache.Trying to make some decisions that require lots of thinking,when I just want to run away from it all.Then I saw the link left by Kenneth (last Friday),and guess what?I stumbled upon the verse of the day,which happened to be Psalm 139:23-24. So I was like ok,I'll read the whole chapter,cause then I'll get the whole story.But I took it as just that.I read it,and didn't stop to analyze the meaning behind it.It's as if I was reading a story.Then I talked to Geoffrey about bits and pieces of the problem I'm dealing with,and he offered some advice and such.And during the convo,I said I wasn't trying to run away,I was just trying to hide.Then on sat morning,he told me to read PSALM 139! And I was like OMGSH! I read that last night.So yeah,he told me to re-read it,and this time round,I should try to figure out what it holds.So I did,and this is what I gathered.

I can run,but I can't hide.This is because He already knew what I was gonna do,even before the thought was formulated in my brain.It's not that I didn't already know about that,but it was more like I didn't want to think of it that way.Call it stubborness,human flaw,willfulness,or whatever you want to.I just didn't want to believe that I have a creator who knows the difficulties that are coming my way,and has the power to 1)lessen the impact,or 2)Change the situation completely;BUT CHOOSES NOT TO. Is freewill really the best choice for flawed beings?But I realized also,that He uses our setbacks as a platform for which we can draw closer to Him. Why?And is He sadistic?NO!Because,when we hurt,so does He.But the reason why He lets us carry on,is because He knows,that only in times of trouble/hurt will we seek Him willingly.And that's what He wants,a willing heart.

Find the answer in His word,its true.
You'll be strong because he walks with you
By His faithfulness He'll change you too
GOD answers prayers.

My Testimony.

2008-03-07T19:26:00.001+08:00

Hey people.Sorry this is a day late,but my dad brought the lappie for reservicing,so yeah. ):
So anyways,this is my story.

I was brought up in a non - christian family,but in a christian environment.Why?I don't know either.I was sent to a christian kindergarten,and my nanny was a christian.I did stuffs like singing graces before eating,but more for the fun than the meaning it holds.

Then I was sent to a catholic primary school,where I heard alot about Jesus,but never did know Him.I remember the times,where it was some sort of a privilege to be able to walk up to the 'sacred' table during mass sessions and drinking ribena and waffles.Actually,it seemed so because that was the only time we could eat openly in the hall. Other than that,really,I suppose it was the air,chokeful of suspense and excitement,that makes you want to be part of it. But I also remember that at Pri 4,when I actually listened attentively to the Priest during the times he talked,I was kinda freaked out by them.Cause he said,'The blood of Christ keep you in eternal life,the body of Christ keep you in eternal life.' And I was like,eeeeeeeeeew?CANNIBAL.And because I wasn't one who dared ask questions,I just kept myself locked with this perception.

During the early secondary school years,I met with,and was 'betrayed' by many of my christian friends,whom I've held in high regard and trusted.So then my trust was shattered,and I vowed never to become christian.I felt that I HATE people who call themselves christians.I promised myself that I'd NEVER become christian. I'd come to the point where I associated them all as hypocrites-people who don't practice what they preach.Also, my christian cousin would always pick on me,as she knew I could never retaliate.

However,that all changed during the beginning of my sec 4 year,when the previous batch of SERVErs came and took over the chapel timeslot.It was then that I felt inspired to re-learn about the christian faith.I also felt compelled to learn more about the SERVE programme,and to take part in it.

So straight after chapel,I gathered my stuffs,and ran to the canteen where Ps Glenn & Serene were sitting.I asked Ps Serene more about the programme,and how it's run.I felt that hey! I want to join,but it's my O level year,so maybe I'll consider after the exams are over.

I felt heartened that even though I wasn't a christian,and did not attend SJC services,I was still allowed a place to study in the Shalom room.Also,whenever I was feeling down,or discouraged,or just feel like giving up,Ps Serene was always there to talk to me,as well as give advice.She was either there with me,or for me.Actually, I think it's a little of both.

Straight after O levels though,I'd forgotten about the silent promise I made to myself earlier in the year.The first vocation I signed up for was to be a volunteer at the Handicapped Youth's camp.I was rejected,with nary an interview.I was dejected,and upset.I went to the chapel on that day,wanting to find Ps Serene for advice. However,she wasn't there.Instead,I had a talk with Ps Bertram,and was given a flyer about SERVE '08.And that was when it hit me,that I'd forgotten about it.And yes,part of the reason why I signed up,was because there's a chance I might get to work with the handicapped! So I was like WOW! So I signed up for it.

When I first stepped into Shaw Hall,I told myself that I will not trust anyone,I will not talk to anyone,unless they first talked to me,and I will not share too much about myself.That I am above looking for people to connect with.I was posted to The 13th Disciple and though we were the last group to warm up to each other,I NEVER regretted making the decision to join SERVE.And I suppose I was put into this group not by chance,but through His will.Whenever people said stuffs like that in the past,I'd roll my eyes and instantly stop listening.But now I know better.

I'm thankful to be in this group,as they've really helped me to grow alot in my walk with Him.Some of them especially,were there for me when I thought no one would care;when I needed them most,they were there. When I got back my O's results,I was like,OH NO.Will they look down on me?But no.They just gave me words of encouragement,and talked to me like I was a normal person.Whenever I am down or in the mood for self harm, they are always there just in time,like everything was orchestrated.I never got to the point where I can kill myself.Somehow,someone would always message me at the time I felt ready,to convince me that I really wasn't,and that He who loves me feels the hurt when I self harm. ~~Remember the suicide letters?~~ And my detailed plans?It's gone,all gone. Like magic.You built me up,and taught me a lesson I'd never forget.

Through the attachment,I learnt to be content with whatever I'm blessed to receive.I learnt also,to appreciate the people around me.People I took for granted,people whom I thought I hated,I'm now on the mend. I learnt to look past perceived differences,and to appreciate people for who they are.As individuals,but one in His kingdom. Big or small,fat or thin,beautiful or ugly,we're all His.We started at the same starting point,but the fininshing lines defer.

The road to righteousness is narrow,but that which leads to evil is wide.

Thank you;

Ps Fu - Man,for allowing me to be part of SERVE though I wasn't in any church prior to the programme.

Ps Serene,for treating me like an adult and for being there when I was almost insane.

Ps Bertram,for treating me like an adult as well,and fielding my bombardment of questions (and at the same time bombarding me with more questions).

Pastors of SJC,for sponsoring me for the programme. (:

Honor.

2008-03-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

Finally.The Honor itty bitty is here! (:
Sorry,but Amandaz is feeling mighty tired today,so refer to your Bibles (:

Honoring your parents

-> Ten Commandments.

Exodus 20:12;Matthew 15:4;Ephesians 6:2

Alrights,I just want to specifically point out the Ephesians Verse (cos if I remember correctly,the rest are commandments,so I trust that no further explanations are needed?) Ok,about that,I had originally read the whole chapter,and there was this bit about how fathers shouldn't provoke their children to moments of anger, and in some other part of the bible (can't remember exactly where) it says train the child in the way he should go (and so on).. And I was like,omgsh.My father always knows which buttons to push to make me angry.And he'd do it ever so often.But then I realized (with the help of Ps Glenn and Bertram,) that our perspective changes in accordance to how we feel in that circumstance.So yeah.And there's also this part in the Bible which says,whatever measure you use to judge others,the same measure will be used unto you (again,I can't remember the verse.SORRY!).So that scared me a little.and made me reflect somewhat upon my actions.And, is it possible?That because I want my parents to fit into the hero characters (thus 'forgetting' they need rooms for flaws too?),I judge them more than any other adults I come into contact with,making them seem better than my parents?I WILL LEARN THEREFORE,to better appreciate my parents,as a person,and as people I should respect,simply because they brought me to life and raised me up,and not because I think they deserve it,or not.Human judgement varies according to moods.GOD's judgement is fair,and undebatable.Plus my parents are not christians,so I suppose I should allow them more space. Parents are,after all,earthly authorities placed above us.

Honoring GOD

-> Tithe,humility before honor.

Proverbs 3:9;Proverbs 15:33;Romans 13:7

Tithe is a monthly amount that should be set aside for GOD (church,if you so wish.)
It is giving the amount before all the deductions for taxes,food,transport,blah.
It is not the church/GOD trying to rip us off,and in actual fact,WE OWE IT TO GOD.
We have what we have because he first gave us.Amen?AMEN!
SO,in that sense,we are not giving him what we've earned/slogged hard for,we are merely returning a portion to him.Tithe is not just teaching us that principle,but it also teaches us how to set our priorities,and how to set it right.Because,GOD is and should be our top,if not,sole priority in life. (:
DID you know?Our pastors' pay comes from our tithing!Think of the levites (: They have such faith!I was like,what if no one tithe?And my pastor,he said.We have faith in the LORD.WOW. O.o!

My mama was initially against me tithing.This is the usual convo:
Mum:Christian ah!Always must give 10% of the pay to church ah!So expensive to be christians!
Me:You taoist people go temple also donate here donate there,then special rites,GOD's bdaes,ask for 'fus' all also need money mah.Sometimes even more than 10% of your pay what.Even more expensive.
Found out from my pastor it was actually the wrong way to handle it. :X But I suppose it worked,cause she never talked to me about the tithe thingy anymore :D

Done for the day (:
Shall share my personal testimonial tomorrow. :D
So no Bible verses tmr.

Cliche Verses.Part II

2008-03-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

Ok,as promised,this is part 2 (:

For Death;

Psalms 23:1-6
The Lord is my shepherd;I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
For you are with me;
Your rod and your staff,
They comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
In the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy
Shall follow me all the days of my life,
And I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Why for His name's sake?I dont understand.Why did GOD create us to worship Him?My pastor says I'm maturing,but I can't feel it lah ): Anyways,whatever it is,I think the passage reassures us that the GOD we hold in high regard is one who is faithful,merciful and comforting. (:

2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight,
I have finished the race,
I have kept the faith.

Isn't this phrase wonderful?I think it'd sum up a wonderful life,fitting of that of a matyr.If I'm not wrong,the defination of that is one who sacrifices (his) life for (his) faith.Meaning to say,(he) doesn't succumb to the circumstances,but have faith in the LORD.By the way,faith is not blind belief.That'd be negligience.Faith is knowing the consequences of what is to come,yet at the same time surrendering our all and placing our trust in Him who knows best. (:

For Forgiveness;

Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death,
but the free gift of GOD is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Matthew 18:21-22
[typing this tmr due to lack of time,sorrys people.check your Bibles! (:]

Forgiveness removes all hatred and brings peace to the heart.It allows space for healing to begin. (:

Due to her incessant naggings,I shall continue the rest tmr,and do the honor bit tmr. REALLY SORRY! TOODLES~

THE cliche Verses.Part I

2008-03-03T21:59:00.000+08:00

For those who worry;
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,declares the LORD,
plans for wholeness and not for evil,
to give you a future and a hope.

Personally,alot of people have given me this phrase when I was unsure about my results.Like,post O's or something.And yeah,before I collected my results,I was bombarded with this.Why?I don't really know.I suppose though,that people around were trying to tell me that worrying about something never changes its outcome,and what we should do is have faith in the LORD and surrender our all to Him.YES.Even the negative stuffs.Looking back,I suppose it's better than my usual coping mechanism.For others around. (: Yes people,it shouldn't be all about us,but the people around us,their feelings matter too.By rights,it should matter more than our own because everything we do,it affects them as well.

For Love;
John 3:16
For GOD so loved the world,that he gave his only Son,
that whoever believes in him shall not perish,but have eternal life.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient and kind;love does not envy or boast;
It is not arrogant or rude.It does not insist on its own way;
It is not irritable or resentful;it does not rejoice at wrongdoing,
But rejoices in the truth.Love bears all things,believes all things,
Hopes all things,endures all things.

I used to sing John 3:16 as part of Xmas caroles at Snow City. (: Those were the good old days. :D Ahhh.
But -gasp!- I didn't know that it was a Bible verse! whews,it was a BIG shocker.In the good sense. (: As for corinthians,I feel that it was teaching more on the values of Love,and how we should go about loving one another.After all, Exodus 20;Love thy neighbor as thyself. (:

Tmr shall be part II. (:
I'll be doing Forgiveness,and funeral passage. (:
And then a separate post on HONOR(-ing parents.)

I do believe I am learning from these posts,I think I'll use it as my quiet time. (:
YAyness!And I suppose if I must admit,that I am quite happy doing this.

Listening to Reuben Morgan;waiting here.
I LOVE the song (: Thanks Chris! :D

Lyrics to my fave songs. (:

2008-03-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

Ave Maria
As I kneel before you,
As I bow my head in prayer.
Take this day,make it yours,

And fill me with your love.

Ave Maria
Gratia plena
Dominus Tecum
Benedicta Tu.

Did You Ever Talk To God Above

Did you ever talk to God above?

Tell him that you need a friend to love

Pray in Jesus name believing that

God answers prayers.

Have you told him all your cares and woes

Every tiny little fear he knows

You can know he'll always hear

And He'll answer prayers.

You can whisper in a crowd to him

You can cry when you're alone to Him

You don't have to pray out loud to Him

He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak He's there

In a meadow by a stream He's there

Anywhere on Earth you go

He's been there from the start.

Find the answer in His word,its true.

You'll be strong because he walks with you

By His faithfulness He'll change you too

GOD answers prayers.

LORD I Lift Your Name On High

Lord I lift your name on high

Lord I love to sing you praises

I'm so glad you're in my life

I'm so glad you came to save us

You came from heaven to Earth

To show the way

From the Earth to the cross

My debts to pay

From the cross to the grave

From the grave to the sky

Lord I lift your name on high

I Hear The Bells

I hear the bells,of Mary Ave's ringing

Joy to my heart,like angel's voices singing.

Calling to prayer,with echos from afar,

Ave Marie,Ave Maria.

Prayer For Peace

Lord, we pray for golden peace

Peace all over the land

May all men dwell in liberty,

Walking hand in hand.

Banish fear and ignorance,

Hunger,thirst and pain.

Banish hate and poverty

Let no man live in vain,

Let no man live in vain.

Here I am Lord

I ,the Lord of sea and sky

I have heard my people cry

All who dwell in dark and sin

My hand will save.

I,who made the stars of night

I'll make their darkness bright

Who'll bear my light to them

Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord,

Is it I Lord?

I have heard you

Calling in the night

I'll go Lord,if you lead me

I'll hold your people in my heart.

Hail Holy Queen

Hail holy queen enthroned above,O Maria.

Hail queen of mercy and of love,O Maria.

Triumph all ye cherubim

Sing with us ye seraphim

Heaven and Earth resound the hymn

Salve,salve,salve Regina.

In His Time

In His time

He makes all things beautiful

In His time.

Lord please show me everyday

As you're teaching me your way

That you do just what you say

In Your time.

In Your time

You make all things beautiful

In Your time.

Lord my life to you I bring

May each song I have to sing

Be to you a lovely thing

In Your time.

Jesus Loves Me

Jesus loves me,this I know

For the Bible tells me so

Little ones to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong.

Yes,Jesus loves me

The Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me,He who died

Heaven's gate to open wide

He will wash away my sins

Let His little child come in.

Yes,Jesus loves me
Yes,Jesus loves me
Yes,Jesus loves me
The Bible tells me so.

Jesus take this heart of mine

Make it pure and wholy thine

Thou hast bled and died for me

I will henceforth live for thee.

Yes,Jesus loves me
Yes,Jesus loves me
Yes,Jesus loves me
The Bible tells me so.

Mary Is Our Queen

Mary is our queen,O sing to her.

Mary is our mother,trust in her.

Mary is the star that shines at night

Guiding us to Jesus our true light.

Mary is the creature of our race

Whom the Holy Spirit filled with grace

To become the mother of our Lord

The God whom she adored.

What A Friend We Have In Jesus

What a friend we have in Jesus,all our sins and griefs to bear.

What a privilege to carry,everything to God in prayer.

Oh,what peace we often forfeit,oh what needless pain we bear.

All because we do not carry,everything to God in prayer.

Have we trial and temptations,is there trouble anywhere?

We should never be discouraged,take it to the Lord in prayer.

Can we find a friend so faithful,who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our e'vry weakness,take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden?

Cumbered with a load of care?

Precious savior,still our refuge,

take take it to the Lord in prayer.

Do thy friends despise,forsake thee?

Take it to the Lord in prayer.

In His arms He'll take and shield thee,

Thou wilt find a solace there.

Shalom

Shalom my friend,Shalom my friend,

Shalom,shalom

God's peace be with you,God's peace be with you

Shalom,shalom.

Shalom good friends,shalom good friends,

shalom,shalom

Till we meet again,till we meet again

Shalom,shalom.

Sins;through deliberate faults.

2008-03-03T12:53:00.000+08:00

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Yes,suicide is just a sin like any other.It is a pardonable sin.
After all,Christ has died for our past,present,and future sins.
However,we must remember that suicide is self murder,and as all christians know,
Murder is sin.
And because we set out to deliberately sin,we are asking not for forgiveness,
but for judgement upon ourselves.
Yepp,it's as simple as that,really. (:

Hebrews 10:26
For if we go on sinning deliberately,after receiving the knowledge of the truth,
there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins.

I suppose it means to say that though Christ died for our sins and he's there to bridge the gap between GOD and us,we'll still be judged for our actions,especially so after we become christians.After all,He has said;
" Not everyone who says to me," Lord,Lord ,"will enter the Kingdom of heaven,but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven." Which means to say,GOD doesn't judge us by what we proclaim,but by our actions and speech.
By the way,that was taken from Matthew 7:21. (: